Feeling Something

From July 3, 2007:

I just want to feel something,
I just need to care again.
I wanna love somebody,
Just like it was back when.

I used to feel things,
In my heart and in my soul.
There was a time when life moved me,
When a sunset made me feel whole.

I know I'm capable of putting my heart out on the line -
It's been there before, I've seen it.
So why can't I just get close anymore,
Just enough to know that I'm still alive?

I want to care, I wanna scream,
I wish to cry, I need to fight for a love.
I want to feel passion for something deep inside my soul.

Something made me this way -
I wasn't always so cold and jaded.
A part of my past that haunts me,
But I desperately want to be my old self again.


"The fantasy is simple: pleasure is good and twice as much pleasure is better; that pain is bad and no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something."